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Wed, 31 Jan 2007 21:30:34 GMT

Journal..
Yeah..
add itt.

jenocideowns

today..

Fri, 26 Jan 2007 04:52:09 GMT

Yeah.. I woke up on my own today at 5:30.
12 hours of sleep much?
I was seriously thinking of just leaving school early!
The fucking freshman [i don't care if I was a freshman last year, they are so fucking stupid and I want to poison them all] made me soo mad. And that fucking kid in my math class. I'M SERIOUSLY GOING TO GIVE HIM LACED CANDY. BECAUSE HE'S A DOUCHEBAG.
I told erica that if I bring any baked goods in, to ask if they're alright to eat before she eats it. She said "That's scary coming from you. REAL fucking scary. I'm not eating any shit that you bring it. Because you'd seriously put poison in it"
hah. they piss me off enough, I WILL.
I'm contemplating on dropping out of Floral Design and the Washington Park program completely.
Fuck PPIP, FUCK WASHINGTON PARK.
And I'm thinking of dropping out of south, also.
Homeschool much?
I want to study real hard for my GED, and try and take it next year. if I get a good, high score, I get to say SYONORA SOUTH HIGH.
I wish. That'd take alot of time to study for. >.<
anyone know where I can get an example test. Kinda like how the actual test would be?
Ugh. Fuck you school. I hope you fucking blow up from a gas leak.
>.<

woo woo

Tue, 23 Jan 2007 20:25:30 GMT

Today was an alright day.
Mother said that I have to go home at 6, she's such a turd :o
Me and Tric decided to leave school early and came here to tricia's
Everyone should be arriving soon.
As in Rob, Katy, and Kendra.
I have the most awful headache.
And Me and Tricia finished frosting the cupcakes.
There's such gore on them!
Their either Zombified, wrists slashed, a toothpick through it's head, or has hitler on it!
Hahahhaha.
Creativeness goes a loooooooong way.

Mon, 22 Jan 2007 07:07:54 GMT

So I'm going to post a heartful Full-o-complaints entry.

Still getting paid at 5.15. Yes, I know, Ridiculous! But! Things are gratefully leveling out at work. At home? Things are a little bad. I mean, I'm not really one to complain, but this is, infact, a journal. So father bitches and snaps left and right at everyone. Prick much? Mother says so. He said I have to be in bed before 11 from now on. Just shove some pills down my throat and I'll feel much better, soo better to the point where i'll sleep better! Only not. Do you know what I did to where he couldn't yell at me? It was 12 AM, I was in my room, was off the PC before he came upstairs, but I was constructing my room. Making cardboard boxes for my earings. I need to find a way to make some bigger ones for my necklaces.

Oh yes! Amber, I'm getting the jewelry together that I do not want. Whatever will be in the bag, you and daeli can fish through because I know daeli might like some of it.

I was extremely angry with Starbucks this weekend. Sheetz 's iced mocha's tasted better! It was also cheaper! Starbucks was just soo disappointing this past weekend.
The car ride home was terrible. The radio sucked and while I was sleeping, sarah woke me up saying "Shit! Fuck! Are you kidding me!? HA-HA. FUCK" And I said the most stupidest thing after waking up and seeing the scene around me "are we getting pulled over?". Dumb, yes, because there was, infact, a cop behind us with his lights and sirens on. We got pulled over. We were doing 87 in a 65 zone. He was nice enough to let her off with a citation and put 77 on the ticket instead of 87, so she didn't have to pay an estimation of 200+ bucks.

I got home and me and katy went to tricia's. Me and casey had fun decorating some cupcakes and I was generally in a good mood!

My grades have slipped in school. I really don't care about it anymore. I'm trying not to care, but I still get stressed over it. What will my parents think? Am I ever going to get into a good college? What about my SATS? This isn't very good for me for in the future! But the more I stress, the more cigarettes I smoke! Which HAS to STOP. So I try not to think about it, and if anyone brings it up, I block them out completely. Please do not talk to me about school. It's a touchy subject to me.

The rents really want to move. It's just talk, no walk. But if things do start walking, I'm going to tell them to look for something small and humble in Lewisburg, Pennsylvania. It's amazing out there and I just can't get enough of it!

I barely see my friends anymore. I kinda don't care about that though. I mean, all of them, all they do is WORK WORK WORK. I manage to get 4 days off of work a week. Right now, my schedule for the next couple of weeks is Mondays, Thursdays, and Saturdays. I'm going to ATTEMPT to go job hunting again on Wednesday.

This weekend I'm staying at amanda's after we all get back from the movies. Then I have work on saturday, and maybe I'll stay at amanda's again. Sunday I'm hangning out with Nikki, Katy, Kendra, and Justin [Big Bird!]. He's picking us all up.
Eww.. long entry, much?

is it for real?

Mon, 22 Jan 2007 06:43:03 GMT

I'm extremely stressed.
I was in such a good mood.
Whenever I'm home, i get depressed because I know everything's just going to suck again.
and what? oh yes, everything DOES suck again.
I can go back to getting yelled at about my sleeping disorder, school, and worst of all, work.
Oh yes, and since that means I'm still not really aloud to go anywhere, I don't get to see my friends.
YES!!
No offense, but sometimes, they do get out of hand.
and some of them aren't even fun anymore.
Because they are lazy.
Get off the couch, fat ass.

Mother let's me go over tricia's.
And to hang out with katy.
If father had it his way, i'd be home for centuries.

Hair dye experience

Mon, 22 Jan 2007 01:39:59 GMT

I dyed my hair this weekend.

After the first bottle of bleach!

And after bottle number two of bleach.

But now I'm very pissed that I dyed it red. Not it looks soo fucking disgusting and it makes me want to shave it all off :[
I'll get a picture of it ASAP.

yeahhh

Sat, 20 Jan 2007 16:43:34 GMT

I guess I'm done updating this.
You bitches yell at when I don't update, but now that I do, you don't fucking comment my entries.
You know what!?
Fuck you!
Except for casey because she normally always comments.

omigod!

Sat, 20 Jan 2007 08:23:29 GMT

it was the funniest thing!
Me and katy went outside, UPFRONT, so we could clabber down the stairs to piss the neighbors off.
Well, sarah came outside, and halfway through our cigarettes, the cops pulled slowly around the corner and looked at us. They stopped and we said "Shit" So we ran up the stairs as fast as we could, and we turned all of the lights off, locked the door 3 times, and layed on the kitchen floor.
We head "DOOF, DOOF, DOOF. LET US IN" and it turned out to be the neighbor knocking on their door because they were partying.
Our hearts were beating soo fast and later, we laughed about it and went outside to smoke the rest of our cigarettes.
It was soo funny!
Oh man, we're soo retarded.

:[

Tue, 16 Jan 2007 08:05:00 GMT

My boss is still paying all the girls 5.15.
bullshit much?
I've been there for what? 3 months?
This is bullshit Elias! BULLSHIT.
Now, I don't like to complain, but c'mON, this is BULLSHIT.
Sean got a call back from BurgerKing. Then I remember that Rayfield works there.
Me and katy made fun of it completely with dane cook skits.
"I CAN'T HEAR YOU BURGAKING"
"LARGE FRY MUTHAFUCKA!"

I bust my ass soo much at work, and what do I get for it? "Good job, jennah, GOOD JOB" and a pat on the shoulder.
HONESTLY NOW! I DON'T WANT TO FEEL APPRECIATED. FUCKING GIVE ME THAT RAISE THAT WE'RE ALL SUPPOSED TO GET.
Anyways, I completely cleaned and wiped EVERYTHING down.
oops. I did forget to wipe down the microwave in the pizza section.
Oops?

I told Elias that I was looking for a new job. I told him I needed more hours than he's giving me. I want my hours rotated. He got all sad and depressed on me saying that He always needs me and kendra and kayla. And that I ALWAYS have to work one day on the weekend. Too bad I'm go to PA this weekend :]. I told him if I get my new job, I might not be able to work weekends, but I'll still work Mondays.
I told dad the whole thing, and he didn't even say shit about me having two jobs.
hah.
I'm sorry eLiAs, 70-80 bucks a week doesn't pay for shit.

Enough complaining.
I'll be prettty busy this week.
I have to:

A) Work on cleaning my room tomorrow to get off grounded.
B)Work on schoolwork & do laundry tomorrow
C)Pack my shit together wednesday night because I have work thursday night.
D) Marcinator is picking me up from school and bringing me and katy here to my house. Then surrizzle is going to drive down here, pick us up, get gas-o-line for her caaaaaaaar and we'll be off to PA.Most Definately trying not to get their uber late. So our stop at taco bell can't be that long.

I hope, hope, hope! that I pass american history. I still have to type up my project >.<
I'll tell mesfin I'll have it for him wednesday, and give it to him before I go to PPIP.

I watched these two Cheesy movies.
But they were really swell! So it makes up for it.
I watched Rumble-Fish which was good, but funny.
And I watched The Chumscrubber.
I mean, they were retarded, but they both kind of reminded me a little of donnie darko, but kinda not?
Hah, kay, I have to go to bed before mother catches me online at.. 3 am.

Moving forward

Mon, 15 Jan 2007 05:05:17 GMT

I didn't tell my boss yet, but i'll be quitting very very soon.
I went job hunting today with sean and katy.
We put in job applications in at Dave's, Fashion Bug, BK ["yeahhhh, I work at the BK lounge." "Really!? Can we get in!?" "Not without coups baby, not without coups.", Drugmart, Steak n Shake, ruby tuesday, quaker steak and lube, and I don't think we tried anywhere else. Oh yes, Dick's sporting goods, and Giant Eagle. We started to apply at Walmart with the gay HIRE MACHINE. Omg, that things ridiculous! I'd rather write a fucking book! Already been there half an hour, KATY WAS THE FIRST TO GO. She still wasn't even half way done with it. Then some bullshit questions come about asking you how you would handle things, like, if susan was being a dirty skank in the bathroom with pete [not really, but they were pretty funny questions]. We only got to page 5 of 67 until katy said "Fuck that" and hit quit. I feel sorry for those poor blokes who actually sat there through that blasted thing.
I do believe you have to be 18 or older to work at CVS.
But if I get any type of call backs, most definately taking up my options and saying SYONORA ELIAS.
Even though he's put down for all of my reference's. Oops. Dane Cook moment. Know what? FUCK YOU. Oh shit, that wasn't right. Might as well just keep going with it.

I'm excited for the trip out to pennsylvania this weekend. it's always nice to get away from home, especially if you're grounded.

you promised me walls

Sat, 06 Jan 2007 09:23:48 GMT

I can't stand a certain roachbag.
i LyKe, DoN't LyKe, LaBeLsZ. i ThInK eVeRyOnE's My BeStFrIeNd BeCaUsE i HaVe No FuCkInG lYfE, i ToTaLlY dIg EmO aNd GoTh GuYz AnD i LoVe McR bEcAuSe ThEy GeT mE, YoU kNoW wHaT I'm TaLkInG aBoUt!?! Of CoUrSe YoU dOn'T, bEcAuSe I'm A fAg ThAt No OnE lYkEs AnD i LyKe, ThInK tHe WoRlD iS sOmEtImEs AgAiNsT mE. BoOoOo. I'm GoInG tO sLiT mY wRiSts So MaYbE pPl WiLl GiVe Me PiTy!

Sun, 31 Dec 2006 01:28:13 GMT

I was in a really good mood when I first got to work! I really was!
Until Elias started making me mad.
I was cussing up and down that shitty place.
Elias got mad and told me to call my parents to pick me up, clock out, and go home.
I told sean to take me home, I clocked out, and me and kendra went outside for a few.
We conspired against Elias and put our Two Weeks Notice in at the same time.
While sean was taking me home, he delivered his pizza and stopped to tell the cops about the tv in the middle of the street.
His car happens to break down. haha, that was pretty funny!
So we call chris and ask him to help because sean thought it was his battery, when I know for sure that it was his spark plug [starter] that was messed up. So Kendra called her dad and Chris brought me home.
Tuesday, I'm going to get my Cradle Of Filth ticket and me, kendra, and sean are going job hunting on tuesday.
We all decided that we don't want to work with food [restaurant] because we just want to eat and get fat and we never shower because 'we're just going to get dirty anyways'
Elias is so fucking sexist. I worked all last weekend! ALL LAST WEEKEND. FULL SHIFTS. AND MY PAYCHECK!? MY PAYCHECK!?
IT ONLY CAME OUT TO 54$.
All the guys are getting payed 7 dollars, the girls getting 6$, the drivers getting 6$.
THIS IS BULLSHIT. And He didn't give me my raise this week like he promised.
FUCK YOU ELIAS, THAT'S WHY I ONLY HAVE TWO MORE WEEKS.
My father is trying to get into it when it's not his responsibility nor is it his problem whatsoever. He doesn't even know what's going on, so PSH. I would have quit right then and there if I knew that I wouldn't have gotten grounded for it.
I don't like having to pay cleveland, AND garfield taxes.
Besides, who wants to work when the ball drops anyways?
WHO WANTS TO HAVE THEIR NEW YEARS AT WORK!?
Not me.

Fri, 29 Dec 2006 21:05:13 GMT

I'm waiting for amber and dominic to get off of work so that we can head back home.
Another 4 hour drive, but it's easier if you sleep.
My hair always feels wonderful out here.
I was sleeping this morning afternoon and the stupid fucking cat decided to take it upon himself to freak out when amber was making noodles and jumped on the couch where I was sleeping, ran up my arm scratched the hell out of me] onto the back of the couch, onto the little counter, onto the kitchen floor, back into the living room, turned around, ran in the bathroom, then headed for the bedroom.
I've gotten soo many scratched from that bastard.
He's adorable sometimes and he only likes me because I give him treats.
LOLZ
Anyways, this weekend me and amber went shoppin' and then we went to zelda's last night and made fun of the ugly people on livejournal [they have internet there]. We both got a mocha latte which tasted like regular black coffee and it was disgusting!
I want to learn french.
Anyone know a nice free program off of the internet for me to use?
I don't want anything that I have to download. Fuck that. I hate downloaded programz.
I also want to learn italian and sign language.
Fuck you communists.
My body hurts from sleeping on that couch. Or maybe it's just my staying up late playing the DS.
WHICH REMINDS ME to bring it on the way to PA. And those books too.

Fri, 29 Dec 2006 00:30:54 GMT

I'm out in PA right now, and when I was outside having a cookie, I thought I saw Elias's van, so I hid.
I don't know why I hid, because WHY would he be out here anyways?
I wouldn't doubt him coming to get me just to work.
Once I get home I am going job hunting, who's with me?
If I get any calls back, I'm most definately quitting Gepetto's Pizza & Ribs!
Ugh. Anyways. I guess I can tell you what I got for Christmas.

1. A new computer.
2. A whole bunch of perfume and some makeup.
3. an afi, a7x, thrice, I WISH I KNEW HOW TO QUIT YOU shirts.
4. AFI cd
5. 25$ gift card for Wal*Mart
6. Work pants -.- and an Ohio State shirt
7. Cappuccino maker machine w/ french vanilla cappuccino mix and cocoa mix with some coffee and a butterfly cake pan.
8. A book from amber called Second Helpings.
9. 50 dollars from uncle mickey.
10. A whole bunch of butterfly stuff :]

I think that just about sums it up.

Xmas?

Mon, 25 Dec 2006 19:00:12 GMT

Merry Christmas, Gaywads.

<3333
Hope you all have a great Holiday and a Happy New Year.
At least ONE of use would be happy then.

Christmas Carrolers.

Tue, 05 Dec 2006 19:54:01 GMT

Some christmas carrolers [little itty bitty kids, two of em] came into my work last week asking if we wanted to hear some christmas carrols for money.
My boss is such a jew.
But onto other things

Who wants a christmas card from moi?
Just leave:

Your name.
Address
city, state, and zipcode.

THIS WEEKEND

Thu, 23 Nov 2006 07:35:34 GMT

Today is Thanksgiving. JOYYYY. I thank the dead pilgrims for giving me off school and a reason to stuff our faces until puke comes out of our noses.
FRIDAY. I plan on getting Starbucks and checking out the thrift store, hopefully nancy will take me if she's not being a bitch. Possibly getting my lip pierced too if Daddy feels like driving to Body Revolutions. I really don't want to get it done there because they fuck up alot of piercings [i'm surprised that they're not closing down soon] than at this place my dad was telling me about where any piercing; 20$. HOW UNSANITARY DOES THAT SOUND? I WANT TO SEE A CERTIFIED LISCENCE MO FUGGA.
Fuck this family, yo'.

FRANKS BEEN BUSTED

Tue, 21 Nov 2006 20:49:35 GMT

He's been sneaking papers from the trashcan lately.

Dream of Japanese, dream of japanese, some language that I don't even know how to speak.

Tue, 21 Nov 2006 06:14:16 GMT

I really don't know why I'm even getting ready to type a journal entry.
They're pretty much pointless anymore. I don't even write in my other online journals; at all.
My body feels like someone injected pounds of led into me.
I'm always so worn out and I've been having problems with keep my vision; once again.
For example: If I stretch and yawn, or sit down on the ground and get back up, I completely lose focus and everything becomes a blur.
It might be because of my overwhelming fatique. I have been getting very few hours of sleep because of my insomnia, and being sick adds to all of that.
I don't really feel close to my friends anymore. We're drifting apart and I feel like someone is slicing through the friendship chain.
I feel like i'm losing more and more friends. The funny thing is that I don't really care anymore.
I've been let down by so many people, and i'm sure i've let down many, but I always seem to get fucked over or taken for granted.
I sometimes wish things were different. That I wouldn't lose anyone, that life would be okay besides war.
I don't focus on guys because I'm not going to waste my time on people who only want a piece of ass.
I don't really want to 'hang out' or 'talk' with anyone in cleveland. The guys here are either completely goofy, stupid, pedophiles, whores, or just down right a douchebag.

Sometimes I find myself falling into the same routine as before. Sleep, school, work, sleep, school, ect.
It seems like everyone is more mean lately. And it's not just recently, it's been going on for months; years even!

The two naked rats are really sick :[ They're almost four years old, and I know the one wouldn't make it to the end of this week, and I know the other won't make it to the end of next. Hopefully it's an underestimate period of time. I also noticed red blotches [spots] around their nose and eyes. That makes me really sad.

This journal entry is completely pointless because I'm wayy too fucking tired to type something completely useful and informative.

Her smiles and her laughter; it's the only thing that i've been waiting for.

Mon, 06 Nov 2006 18:24:09 GMT

So lately i've been pretty drained and busy.
I have no idea how I got through this hectic weekend.
Well, after all the Rocky and Shocky events, things started to settle down a little.
But work keeps spicing things up and I never seem to find time for myself or for school.
I need to start going to bed early from now on.
I sleep in school all the time or I just end up not going at all.
The only people that I see or talk to anymore is Rob and Katy.
I'm going to put down my things to do for the day.

- Wash Clothes
- Clean room >.<
- Straighten up room and make bed
- Vaccum
- Catch up on schoolwork
- Work 4-9
- Do more schoolwork
- sleep
- AND NOT MISS SCHOOL FOR ONCE.

There's more.
I also need to give the dog and cat a bath sometime this week.
I also need to change whoodeenie's tank
and I also need to fix my computer.
Oh jeeze, this shit sucks.

School entry much?

Fri, 27 Oct 2006 17:09:41 GMT

I'm sitting in Barton's class, skipping 4th block.
I finished my projects ages ago.
I ran into a few immature eleventh graders.
They tried talking to me so I ignored them, and kept walking.
One of them called me a honkey.
I was pissed.
Ugh.
But this 9th grade class isn't soo bad.
They have this really gay kid in here named Terrance and he's adorable!
hahaha.
I'm out of here, peace homefries.

For them, I'll kill anything. Cut the throats of baby spawn.

Fri, 20 Oct 2006 21:49:58 GMT

So I decided that I'm not having any kind of birthday party and/or celebration. It's just too much money and we're really tight on money at the moment.
And I just remembered something!
Who's birthday is also on mine?
I bet you didn't even guess.
Bill Gates!
Well, not the person I was trying to tell you.
Laconte's birthday is on the 24th too.
That black guy.
Yeah.. he's a faker.
SFU (Saint Francis University) sent me a pretty letter giving me information. I sent that little card thing back with my checked interests in subjects and they're going to send me more information.
Isn't that nice?
They have alot of activities and courses that you can take. Over 30!
And the living quarters, they made them sound amazing! They have apartment dormitories :]
Oh yes, I also looked into NYU (New York University).
I'm looking for a college that I can be interested in.
And the best thing about it, is that NYU and SFU has Financial Aid.
Fun ^.^
I'm doing this so early so I would have to rush and search and all of that jazz.
I'll probably apply to these places on line and such, instead of waiting for college applications to be mailed here.
And I'll hopefully have that job at the end of the week ^.^
So I can save up for driving school and get my liscence, hopefully, before I turn 18.
I really wanted to go see Nightmare Before Christmas today. They're playing it in 3D at Valley View.
Maybe I can bug mommy or daddy to give me money :]
Or I'll just clean -.-
P.S. I made french toast today, and the brown n' serves that my dad made, smelled like MARIJUANA.
And kinda tasted like it too.
It was funnnnyy.

Thu, 19 Oct 2006 19:55:41 GMT

Does anyone know where I can find Edgar Allan Poe movies?
Not biographies, but the movies that were made into a movie from his stories.
ie: The Fall of the House of Usher
I would love you mucho.

They went away?

Tue, 17 Oct 2006 06:43:03 GMT

So i've had such a long, fun, tiring weekend.
First, all week i've been stuck with katy and i'd like to get my point out that i'm so fucking sick of her <333333
Then friday, amber came in from PA and and whole bunch of people went out to steak and shake.
Let's seee, who was there?
Okay.
Paula, Miranda, Tricia, Dominic, Amber, Nikki, Haylee, Mike, Katy, Kendra, Bob, and I.
It was very fun.
Then! Saturday morning, amber grabbed Theresa and got me and katy up. We all went to starbucks; it was nice.
Then we went to Gryo George. That was nice too.
[insert gap of time]
Then there was Katy's birthday party, which was alot of fun. I met Sam and she was really nice, and I got to see Heather Thacker again! She got her braces off!
Then after katy's party, we went to Jennifer's Halloween party and everyone got Drunk and shitfaced and shizz. It was CRAZYYYYYYYY.
Hahahahahha.
Then on sunday, Katy, Rob, Nikki, and Bob came over my house and Rob and Nikki got their haircut.
Then I went to my cousin's birthday party and that was a load of boring. Since not many people could make it.
Then I went to a haunted house with Mo and Z.
Brandy went too, but she's a 'stupid' pussy according to some people.
I'm the biggest pussy and I still finished all seven floors of hell!
We all screamed like bitches, and laughed about it after screaming, but it was fun.
The first one we went into was the best. House of Nightmares.
Extremely pitchblack.
The last one was the most fun too.
Circus 3D.
Hahaha, that one was fun.
Then after that, brandy made us go see this college boy, but very much in a relationship, cutie.
I was asking mo is he was gay and she said she didn't know anymore.
He was extremely fruity acting and all he made me think of is what robert would have said about him.
Hahahhaa.
Oh yes, i'm going to a Haunted House this weekend, since Seven Floors of Hell wasn't all that good.
We're going to the one at the Blossom this weekend.
Going to be tres amusant.
Oi!
It's wayyyy past my bedtime.
P.S. I didn't go to school today.
And I'm addicted to Fish Tycoon.

Ciao

A few Haiku's

Fri, 06 Oct 2006 03:55:41 GMT

I like writing Haiku's, because you can always summarize beauty is so little words/syllables.

Fall
joyous; colorful
the leaves cry towards the ground
another bare tree

Halloween
Spirits of the grave
they dance under the moonlight
haunting and scaring

Winter
snowflakes whoop with joy
their season has come at last
warmth; far from their thoughts

Christmas
you spot a present
excitement overcomes you
lighted greenery

Birthday
excuse to have fun
you take advantage of this
you're getting older

Valentines Day
sweeties found smooching
flowers are a common gift
singles cry alone

They may be kinda stupid, but i'm basically half asleep and was bored.
I went over this thing like, three times to get out all of the typos.
>.<